god, my life has been so volatile lately

i guess it's just that certain people make me burst with sunshine while others just make me want to fucking burst.

i guess it's just that i worry too much about the well-being and happiness of others and ignore myself

i guess it's just that honesty isn't always the best policy if you're looking for personal gratification

i love being a bleeding heart. i love taking care of people, looking out for them, doing them favors and what not.

but i don't love the repurcussions of that. i'm always broke, i'm always stressed.

i know karma will be good to me, i just wish i knew when that day would come so i could clear my head and maybe sleep for once